< my summer is going to be soooooooo fucking short. >
June 20, 2003attempted and didnt succeed that is. i get distracted easily.
let us see...well skool is over for me.. no comment on it.
been spending some time with my best friend cas.. walking the streets, desecrating, talking, mostly being a naughty girl. of course. summer's awesome right now.. unfortunately im lonely as phuck. man wise. it sucks major ass core schitt. theres usually something in the way i cant solve for the guys i want. ~sigh~ pathetic i know.
my hair's back to blonde.. as i liked it. i plan to put other colors in it. maybe cut it differently. hmph..getting a tat. something between my shoulder blades. on sXe. miss being wanted and i miss being happy.
just need to get out and have some fun..
going to NY in july sometime. supposedly.
god this world can look so beautiful....then again it can be disgusting...hmmm biiiiig time philosophy right there.. pfft.
reading this book.. pretty cool.. simple and elegant at the same time.. okee so it has pretty pictures and big words..hhehe
"How to Be Happy, Dammit"
44 lifelessons
pretty good i recommend. i hate avril lavigne.. god.
i suppose i should explain Straightedge (aka sXe) to whomever doesnt know what it is...
starts something like this:
i have morals. sXe is a moral.. marriage without the divorce. you go on with it for your whole life. basically..no sex before love, no drugs (actual ones,people...prescription and caffeine are touchy in the sXe society) no alchohol, no smoking. just the choice for an individual to live out a healthy lifestyle.. of course these are just the basics, not rules. people vary their morals and have straightedge as a label sorta...something to say that they are and be damn proud of. as i am. unfortunately sXe like any label has become something for the posers alike. people say they are and then start going against them... thus not being sXe. stop being something else. your giving the good sXers a bad name.
anyways... im always interested in talking to people. i feel good with sXers since they know how it is sometimes. i can relate. but i generally like anyone.. or will try to get to know them. my IM names are on my profile. anyone lol.
blah i dont know what else.. blah blah bald fishes in the sea
saw finding nemo...lol...why ? my friend Pat. he is silly.
muzik: sister machine gun-torque
feeling: sorta kinda happy. calm and bored and lonely :D
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