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< down in Portland, Maine. >

2003-05-16
10:40 p.m.

I sit here at my cousin's place in celebration of my cousin, Matt's graduation from college. i love it down here, just a more exciting atmosphere, though i do miss my routine of talking to friends, i miss my Ghost, heheh and miss the single phone call i get from my good friend greg as i miss talking to miami despite the immense pain it brings.

although i am more exposed to more interesting people, it does bring the problem of the not so good things. im used to the smoking and drugs and such, being around people who delve into them, but im secluded. not so fun. once again that loneliness creeps up on me, and im reminded im alone again. sure id force myself to be involved but is that reall how you make friends? ah well, damn im horny, ah and no one really gets my randomness. its okee tho merp.

im done for now i suppose.

muzik: Beck- im a loser (remix)

feeling: out of place, tired, lonely.

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