i work.. im getting a car.. and im alone. i cant stand being alone...fuck it hurts. i wish i could just get the hell out of here. maine fucking sucks.
rawr....
i need to isolate myself from everyone again. fuck everyone.. all it causes is pain.. i try to hard then i fuck up and dont try at all augh people are sick. god 16 yr olds in threeways with people they barely know. hurts.
sorry ghost.
i always do it.. a relationship is perfect.. then i remember.. 'oh.. i lied.. i fucked it up.' or... 'oh.. he doesnt love me' or..'oh..shit.'
brandon-raped me
ricky- cheated on me
chris-...he was okee.
cullen- couldnt be seen with me
orlando..-we all know that tale.
i dont want to do things. im selfish but also im looking out for those who dont know .. i dont want them to know.. i protect and its not my right..
fuck...fuck fuck fuck.... i dont know any other words dammit im not some philosophical abundenment. whatever. diary land sucks. i dont like paying.
i need clothes.
muzik: i dont care right now.
feeling : fuck.